A promise, to myself.
Today I will avoid everything. All of it. After this moment I will not think of it. I will stop frowning.
At work I will focus my energy on the job. I will smile at every single person. I will finish the rest of my work for the week.
After work I will go and buy myself a good bottle of Pinot Noir. The kind I usually only buy for special occasions.
Then, tonight I will go home, and cook a dinner, and sit on the chair outside and drink my pinot. I will laugh with my friends.
I will run a warm bath, I will let myself relax. Then I will try and let everything go with the water as it runs down the drain.
I will get an early night. I’ll let sleep take me, I won’t resist it. I won’t ask the empty air for answers.
And. Tomorrow morning, when I open my eyes, I’ll try again, to avoid everything.
